On the serious side

Okay, I know I am not good at posting pictures but this weekend, I will be taking some of the dogs and me and Logan so I will add some next week.

Well, today is the beginning of week thirteen. The sickness has slowed down the past few days but I am not going to say it is over until I know for sure. We had our Doctor's visit yesterday and it went very well. All my blood work was in good shape and the baby seems to be doing well. The heart beat was 160 which at this point is right where it needs to be. It was such a comfort to hear the heart beat and know everything is still okay. You see, the past few weeks have been difficult for me emotionally. I cry at the drop of a hat over nothing and I ahve developed a lot of fear. Since I can not feel the baby move yet, my mind gets away with me and I think all these awful thoughts because I do not know what is going on in there. But when I heard the heart beat yesterday, those all went away and I felt so much better. I know my hormones are out of control right now but I have been quite depressed lately. A lot of it is because I have been so sick and that has always brought me down. But I have a lot of anxiety as well. I must take a minute to publicly thank my mom for all the info she shares with me about pregnancy. It helps to hear that from her. No one knows my female side or knows exactly what I am experiencing better than my mom. I also want to thank Logan's mom, Susie for all that she shares with me too. These are two women who have been there and done that and I trust and value all their advice. I love you both very much and wish I could see you. I also want to thank my friends Christie and Kari for being understanding when I am feeling down or in a bad mood. You two always say the right things to cheer me up and I really apreciate you both more than you know.

Okay, now for Logan ( I know you are reading this darlin) You have been the absolute best comfort through all the bad days. When I am sick and you set a bottle of water by the door and ask me if I am okay, it makes me feel so loved. Logan has been the most loving, and caring husband. On my good days, all I really want is to be with him and just do fun things together. Logan, I am so blessed to have you. God made you so special and I think he also made you especially for me. Logan, I love you so very much and I love that we will be parents together.

Okay, as far as my dad and Logan's dad James, at this point I want to thank you both for keeping the grandmothers under control with the shopping. I know that is a hard job but y'all are doing great. And I want to thank you both for your sensativity and caring. I love you both.

Well, thats all for now. Stay tuned...........